My employment specialist confirmed what some of you have been telling me for years: If you haven't been employed for a while, you're screwed.
She told me that she's having trouble placing her clients because many of them have been out of work for years. Yes, that includes me, even though I've held a few temporary jobs over the past couple of years.
I worked hard at both of those jobs hoping to be permanently placed, but that never materialized (surprise, surprise). So I've spent the time since then looking, and looking, and looking. And when I wasn't doing that, I was looking some more with an odd job for a friend here or there.
At this point I may as well just throw in the towel. Just trying to find employment is cut throat these days. My employment specialist says I come off as hostile. Well yes, I am hostile because employers are openly hostile to me and every other long-term unemployed person or disabled person out there.
Finding one that isn't is like trying to find a needle in a haystack, at least here in Florida's former Space Coast and 'Murica's Graveyard. I'm not going to kiss some suit's ass when his attitude says he's already hired someone and I'm not it.
Don't tell me to leave because I can't. I have no income to speak of and likely never will at this rate no matter how hard I keep fighting for it. Don't tell me to get my driver's license either. No one has the patience to help me get it and I can't hire someone to teach me either.
And don't tell me I'm not willing to work, because if that were true, I wouldn't be wasting my time with hostile employers for shittier wage jobs just to get my foot in the door and still be turned away. Hell, even Schedule A isn't an option because I live nowhere near any federal sites. And apparently IT is too saturated, so again I'm screwed. So much for getting around my disability. I guess I'll just go back to bagging your groceries like a good little prole.
I'm willing to work, but I don't have the will to 'fight' for it anymore.
See you around,
Homer