All feedback will be greatly appreciated..
As you can see, I’m a black woman, 53 yrs. of age, and a mother to two sons and one daughter… Growing up, life was great! Raised by my single mother, my brother and I never wanted for anything. We were also reared by lots and lots of family members, as well as a host of friends and neighbors… There was not a care in the world for us… At age 12, we moved outside of the city to a near by town, and there, too, the rearing of my brother and I continued on, but this time it was by some Jewish, Anglo Saxons and a few other ethnic folks who had become part of the mix. Did I mention how great life was? There was not a time where family and friends could be heard talking about race relations, who hated who, etc, etc, and because of that I grew up believing that all folks loved one another, Yep, I sure did! At age 17, I joined the Navy, but I had to wait until I was 18 before I could actually go to boot camp, and while waiting, I did a little travelling down the East Coast. I had a blast, met some good folks, ate great food at some mom and pop eateries, partied with all kinds of people, and I did all of this without a care in the world. Life, America and the people who lived in it was good…. Ok, off to the Navy I go, and while serving, I realized the important job I was doing along side my fellow sailors, from all walks of life, and how amazing it was to work with people who cared, loved and gave of themselves, and that, too, was good. Still, no issues about race relations, HATE, folks wanting to hurt others(outside of cheating) but never did I see violence on a personal level… Note: I will admit that I was not participating in politics at the time, I was in Mr. Reagan’s Navy, and I just wasn’t interested, but now I eat, breath, and sleep POLITICS)….:o)
Fast forward to the early 90’s, I’m now back in Maryland after travelling to 25 countries and 40 states, divorced(my ex and I are still haven’t figured out why we are) and raising three little ones by myself. America has changed a lot, but all appears good. Family and friends are still in tact, folks appear to be civil, caring and giving, and I still don’t have a care in the world… I became a care giver in 1994, and at that time, most of my patients were Caucasian DEMS. I still wasn’t politically aware, but the folks I cared for were, and although they were not fans of GWB, I didn’t hear none of them speak negative about him on a personal level, they just didn’t like his policies. Then 9/11 happened, and my world behind rose-colored glasses began to shade a little darker, not much, but it did. People(not all) had become mean in the country that I lived in, and I did not know why. I wanted to blame my mom, and my family for not teaching me about what was really going on in the world. Why didn’t someone tell me about what why folks HATE? Why didn’t my teachers tell me about Slavery in depth? Why didn’t someone tell me that I could not trust every DARN person I’ve ever met? I know my questions will go unanswered cause all of the elders in my family are gone, but maybe I can get an answer from someone out here… Ok, vent off!...:o) It wasn’t until 2007 that I became involved in politics, and since that time, the majority of my patients have been Republican women(4) and men(3)… Now, we are all humans, but some humans are truly different then others, and when SOME of them have a (R) behind their name, that difference is in full-blown view, and it’s not always pretty….LOLOLOL… I could do a dairy-a-day just telling stories about my time with Republican patients.
Okayyy, Kossacks, with all of that being said, hears the deal. I write this diary not to just give insight as to who I’am, but I need thoughts, opinions, ideas, advice, etc, etc. about my dilemma. I’ve been caring for this wonderful, thoughtful, funny, sincere, 91 yr.old, ex-FBI, Republican fellow for ten months now, and he thinks of me as a daughter(he has five of them). We go out to eat, sight see, events, movies, etc, and I even go to his Catholic Retreats once a month with him, and I’m not catholic...:o) I love him! Here’s the issue, I just found out yesterday that 2 of his daughters, and their husbands were at the White Supremacist rally, and the confederate flags I found in his back room closet may have been put there on purpose… I’m soooo in disbelief, cause I interact with one of the two daughters frequently, and I feel like a fool cause I was not able to recognize what HATE looks like… I’m at my wits end, because I don’t know what to do…. I truly don’t want to leave him, but I know that I cannot pretend to be something that I’m not, and that’s, PHONEY, Fake, and all of the other horrible things I now believe 2 of his daughters to be. Any thoughts, prayers, advice, ideas, etc, will be greatly appreciated…. Thanks in advance…
Editors note:
In the past, I made a comment about hating DJT, and I realized that it’s not true because I don’t know how to hate. I’ve tried to do it, but I just can’t… So from now on, I’ll just state that I severely dislike him….:o)